silent lately

Lately I've been away from blogging again...yet once more here I am writing again. I've been searching, soul searching to who and what I am. What I'm meant to be, who I'm meant to be. I guess it's soul searching.  I've turned off my humanity for a while and when I opened my eyes I saw what a terrible being that made me fir that moment when I stop caring about consequences. I get the feeling of freedom and relief when I'm in that state but at the same time those that are closest to me suffer more than what I do. When I came back in came back to my senses everything change for me everything was different everything came down harder and stronger than me. When I felt it it was setting I felt so many emotions it was strange to me no one would really understand what that's like maybe or perhaps there are people that do and then there are people who will read this and think wow that lady's crazy. But things happen that happened now I'm realizing I know I am meant to be something greater and I will be something great, a force not to be reckoned with and people will learn that, others will learn that, I will learn that. Well then I guess I'll keep searching. For now I'm the rule breaking illuminati princess because I refuse to be bound by laws outside my own. I believe in a new world order,  MY new world order and it will come. I will rise above my expectations and bring those who wish to rise up with me. I will ascend to the correct status of goddess. When I do it will be the greatest moment of my life.... end self rant real world problems coming soon! ;)

HATE VS HATE.....WHAT?!?

Good morning.... or afternoon/evening depending on location. Today's topic is hate. You know I find it rather entertaining AND interesting that a group of minorities can throw hate against another group. Another thing I find interesting is those changing #blacklivesmatter to #alllivesmatter... yet... still throwing hate and violence rather willy nilly and THEN using religion as an excuse. The thing is no matter where you're from, the colour of your skin, your sexual orientation, religion etc, there's always that outbreak, the virus, the disease known as hate. Now I do find it interesting a way of (in my eyes) to ignore the hate or turn the other cheek by embracing the hate. Feeling it as a sign of envy or something. Like you know "it's all good I love my haters." But hate these days are either subtle within a community or very obvious. Why are we still judging because of ones sexual orientation, one's color of skin, the clothes they wear etc. What's done? Retaliation of course. Slurs are thrown, hate is thrown and erupts into violence or blow off as if to say "oh the race card how typical" or "oh using the fact that he's gay as a reason he was attacked" as if that doesn't exist. Every day a hate crime is going on. Instead of flinging fist or insults, how about putting a stop to it, or at least making hate less. Hate is a distraction from a bigger problem, your higher ups I.e your government officials. They want more problems while they make money. While we kill one another off we are eliminating what they consider to be a problem to avoid us seeing the bullshit. Fighting fire with fire is not the way to go. Try to understand a person before judging. If not, well we all may as well sign our lives away... rant ended

SEXUAL SOUL CONNECTION:TWO HALVES OF A WHOLE

When two people connect that feels their souls for whatever reason are meant to be, they have a connection and bond greater than any  long term relationship or marriage. It is the other half of your whole. The one who when you walk around and there's a black hole of something missing and they enter your life with that same black hole but together that emptiness just so happens to disappear mutually? That's the other half of your soul..... but... one question remains...... what is the sex like? Honestly it depends on how open you are spiritually, physically and mentally because having sex with a literal soul mate (star crossed or not) can open doors you never knew existed. Now hold on with the crazy train you say? What the hell are you talking about?  Ok so it's like this, sex although it can be rather fun and exciting to have a nice romp around the bedroom, backseat of a car.... (or front ;) ), the beach, hotel, or.. wherever the mood and risk stricks. However sex can go deeper, more intimate, more than just love making because you can open more than your legs, your mouth, or... butt cheecks. You can both open your mind, souls, bodies, and hearts. If spirituality you are intuned with yourselves and the universe and you have history.... (I'm not talking friendship here) then you can even possibly awaken and bring forth past life memories together.  Yes it may sound crazy, but it is very possible. Passionate sex when done When both parties are 100% open to one another can bring forth a connection and bond that almost all of humanity fails to believe exist. A pair must explore each others bodies through touch, give complete trust and know that this is right, verbal communication is also handy,  and yes a cheesy occasional look into one another eyes is also a big deal. As fantastic as this is it also has it's own negative aspect. You can open a connection with just about anyone. Though it will not be the same (or prayerful) as your other half, nor will the experience be the same with the next, you are giving and taking a spiritual and energy force of one another it can be good, but also bad. If you have multiple partners and one or more has a negative enery, you open yourself to take and or give, the end result will be a negative one. Sexual connection at a higher level is not to be played with. Know what you're getting yourself into. That night of passion can and will bring you a natural high, an energy unlike any other, but you also get hit with a wave of emotion. So on this instance be very careful and happy exchange ;)

OFFICIALLY A "PRINCESS" CAN'T WAIT TO BE QUEEN!

In my absence before my return, I've been working on my self. One day I will go through all phase and become the goddess I know I'm meant to be. For now, I'm just a princess a little lady still learning about herself, watching the world thinking "what can I do to be the one who tries to make it a better place". Realistically speaking I'm one person who isn't even begun to scratch the surface. But I won't let that stop me. If I let things get in my way, I wouldn't be moving forward to reach my goal of self awareness,  making physical changes and even mental changes because I WANT to, I CHOSE to. I want to do things to make myself better, and my community a better place.  Why? Why put in hard work you're not getting paid for? Because it's just taking if i did ot any other way. Why not give in a positive way with hopes others can see that light? I'm not the kind of royalty who lives in a palace, with tons of money. I'm a princess that wants to better herself and the world.

LET'S TALK ABOUT SEX

I'd like to branch of my previous blog and talk more about sex. Everyone thinks about it, wants to do it, or has done it (paid for or not I don't judge! ) yet people feel it's not something that should be discussed. Then you have people who's fortunate enough (like myself) to have friends and or family they can discuss it with. Which honestly pretty fucking awesome especially considering if your parents didn't get busy, you wouldn't be here. Or be swallowed because well... some like to swallow, others spit, flush, or butt sex.. let's not forget the lovely lesbians or gay men ;) What I don't get, why must such a thing be so taboo? In America, it's to the point where sex education is watered down or limited if not cut completely. In your youth you're tought "wait for the right one" in overly religious househoods, the parents teach not only is sex a sin when you're not married but it's a sin to touch yourself. So not only do ypu have to ignore your natural bodily urges that your "creator" has placed within you, you can't pleasure yourself to get it all out. Now there are people who are not for touching themselves and that's cool, but for one to ignore a fire within that craves a touch from another? Yeah ok whatever. Now some things about sex I believe in are safe sex, get tested, your partner tested, and or use protection. ALWAYS carry protection and test that protection using a good light to avoid the good ol' hole in a condom trick. Your body with or without sex is sacred, take care of it, it takes care of you! (Avoid a pregnancy you're not ready for doesn't hurt either LOL)  with the right person, sex can go beyond a physical level and trust me it is beyond fantastic! (I'll blog about that next) Now, I'm not saying waiting is at all a bad thing, I'm not saying sex is something to rush into just because everyone is doing it or it will make the one you're with happy. I'm saying sex needs to stop being the elephant no one wants to talk about. Ask questions, read about it, watch porn for fucks sake, and if you're a teen, ask your parent you feel most comfortable or adult relative. Explain you'd rather know from them than the streets because it can lead you wrong. If none in your family are good for the subject ask your Dr. Inform this is between the two of you. That being said let's get busy either alone or with your intimate partner.

WOMEN OPEN ABOUT SEX ARE SLUTS AND WHORES

Hello readers, today's topic is something I've been trying to write since yesterday morning but I kept getting interrupted and my save to draft wasn't working. SO let's talk about sexuality in women type shall we?

It's very interesting how much sex is such a taboo especially for women due to the brainwashing of society. A man can freely talk about sex, who they slept with, the amount of women they've slept with, and get the thumbs light and approval from their male friends and even most women! Sadly women don't get the same privilege. She talks about who she slept with and how many her friends judge her to her face, or judge behind her back. With the fellas it's the same if not worse. If a woman likes sex, she gets looked upon like she's "easy" and any and everyone can get in her pants. She's called slut, hoe, whore, bitch, and any other name in or out Webster and urban dictionary! I like any other human being LOVE sex! The feeling of one gently touching and caressing my skin, feeling their mouths over the most sensitive parts of my body and me doing the same in return. It's a beautiful and fun experience. Women love to have sex for pleasure and fun as much as if not more than a man. And for one to be shamed by her fellow female party and male counterpart sets society in closed mind and a few centuries back. I believe a woman and man should have sex freely (protected of course!) Without judgement because let's face it, had it not been for sex none of us would be here. I do however frown upon unprotected sex unless it's with a long term partner and even then I recommend wrapping up...... but.. that's a rant for another day. I had more to say on this, but I'm feeling ill and can't recall everything I originally wrote yesterday.

DEAR BLACK PEOPLE PT 3

So yesterday. .. past few days actually I was wondering what to blog about, and yesterday I saw something that was PERFECT! BLACK PEOPLE! More specifically black people who don't know how to ACT! The black people who give those with sense a bad stereotypical bad rep. I was surfing around FB and I see a video. (I'll post it later if I can) In this video the setting takes place within a McDonald's. The main person causing the scene was a black man (or boy.... honestly he acted like one) who for whatever reason reason was throwing things and going after someone... or everyone in the back of the counter. The two commentaries was a woman and male who apparently knew the guy and wanted to get this video circulated through worldstar and all social media sites. (Mostly the male friend in the background) The woman, wanted her friend, fiance boyfriend whatever to do as much as possible without getting caught. The only thing in that video that made the slightest bit of sense was the background guy wanting to leave before the cops came.  Now I'm all for whopping a person's ass if and ONLY IF they provoked me enough to do it via putting your hands on me. But I'm not going to do it in your place of business because hun I have class. Honestly they were acting like a bunch of adolescent teens who wanted to get fame from violent, immature actions.  I don't understand, is it that a large portion of blacks WANT to be looked at as wild malicious animals that don't want a job and know nothing but violence and find sheer joy in unstaged, uncontrolled violence (because I do like my boxing and wrestling lol)? Do blacks enjoy giving the white man justified reasons to shoot him down because he can't control his temper? Do blacks enjoy hearing "see things like this is why slavery should be reinstated because black people don't know how to act"? Do blacks enjoy being looked down upon and continue being at the bottom of the ranking ladder because they want to cause a scene for the sake of fame or justice to their anger?
Dear black people,  this is not the life our ancestors hope that we would live. Our ancestors wanted us to be educated, rise above the hateful stereotype, rise above and take this land forced upon us to be ours. This world is ours for the taking, but not through nonsensical violence. Thank you!