Temper Tantrum

Whenever one hears such a thing, we all think of one or two things 1) The spoiled/not disciplined enough at home child/teen..... or 2) An overprivelged adult who ALWAYS get what they want. Yet no one sees the positive aftermath of a tantrum. Now before you think of me crazy just sit and think! For some, (NOT ALL PLEASE NOTE) after the tantrum is thrown, the tantrumee is a bit calmer, still upset but none the less calmer. Tear stained face and snotty nose yet calm and or sulking silently. Now what I am going to ask and say will seem strange but I Delia-Arya had a tantrum yesterday. I was cleaning a room up, and in the midst of cleaning up, I saw a cat mask that brought a flash back of something recent. The little person i brought it for wanted to use the mask to speak to her now lost kitty who according to neighbor's tried coming in as this cat NEVER goes outdoors even if we all leave our door wide open, now thinking of her hurt, and all the emotional depression and stress I've been feeling I LOST it, I threw everything, yelled, screamed, cried, banged on the walls like a crazy woman and ultimately ended up balled up on the floor sobbing loudly rocking back and forth. there were other adults in the house who live here and I believe one of them came up to check on me but in that state I just didn't want to speak to or hear anyone, so after a bit they left. I cried, I snofflrd I was shaking and then.... I just stopped. It was SUCH a huge load off. Like how most people need to talk it out I threw a tantrum and since then... I've never felt so free. I wanted to go out on a picnic in this freezing weather, or a museum or bake, or do ANYTHING fun. The point is perhaps the youth is on to something.  A tantrum can be a way to let it all out.. now I'm not telling you to break anything goodness no! Nothing broke and the stuff that was broken was already broken to begin with and I was throwing away. BUT I felt so much better than I have been the past several months and I want to know,  did you throw a tantrum today? If not what's your way to release?

De Ja Moo....

I've written about this bull shit before. Yet no matter how many times I read or hear about it I STILL cobsider it a joke. Feminist against sex workers or bashing them due to their choice of body use. One thing I can't STAND is when people look at a stripper, a porn star and margarita bra lady (old picture Google it) and bluntly state "that's degrading" or "I'll never degrade myself for money" Uhhh... news flash!  You ALREADY ARE! Please explain to me how can one stand up for the rights of woman and shun her for the thing she enjoys? There are few that feel they have no choice, no I still don't find it degrading, I just get irate that you make her feel lower than low with your snide comments. Yet you or your man is throwing the money he degrades himself for hy working a job he probably doesn't enjoy instead of coming home to a think I'm better than you wife who can't please him enough to keep him from stressing 24/7. How? By not being a fair partner (that's a blog on it's own). You do realize everyone is a whore for money, especially if you are getting paid no more than slightly above minimum wage. Instead of putting her down calling her a THOT a hoe, a sell out, her profession degrading, a shame to woman everywhere how about worry about real world problems like how you're being robbed blind by your government or how your underage teen is completely out of hand behind your back picking on someone all while sucking cock or verbally degrading someone elses daughter oh but wait that's not important enough for you now is it? That's cool this illuminati princess will sip her tea and continue to support porn stars male and female alike along with strippers and same sex marriages while you continue to spout the same bull shit as the norm!

Self Love Change For Self

We all have flaws, even those that believe or let people believe that they are perfect. Truth is,  we all have things about ourselves we want to change.  For instance I feel I'm still to fat and flabby and my arns are rather unattractive,  but I'm working on sculpting myself to be the way I feel I should be no matter how anyone feels about it. But I'm changing because I WANT TOO! I see and hear about people bending to others just to earn the approval and false love instead of those loving you for you and supporting you for the positive changes one wishes to make for themselves. It's sadly society pressure. People need to love themselves first, know their flaws and embrace them, and change the things they see fit. People say beauty is in the eye of the beholder but quick to define what true beauty is. Well it's bull shit.  Change for your well being, change because you are comfortable being you and wish to enhance your hidden potential and favorite features, or there's something about you that you don't like. Like your consistency, your level of organization, to be a better artist, or SOMETHING. Just don't do it because someone demands it. You're fanfuckingtastic, you will be even better when you finally realize it.

CORPORATE SLAVE

No matter if you work for a well known company, your own, a small business or flipping burgers, we all have one thing in common if you're not an overprivelged child: we're all slaves. On Twitter, I shared a photo that made me think about it and how lives are being wasted. We all work so hard to achieve the perfect dream that we may or may not get to see,  that we never get the chance to appreciate the little things. Or the big things such as family, playing or picnics in a park, people don't even go to movies much anymore unless it's the hottest mainstream thing. We are slaves to many things. Sure you may get paid but how little? We are away from families, get no time if any to ourselves, we eat sleep work repeat like robots. All for what exactly? Let's take a moment to review things, most people overwork to afford rent, mortgage, bills, food, support our families, support ourselves, and yet... we are so underpaid and miss the good things in life all because of inflation on necessities of life, and a dream/goal to chace for peanuts while the overprivelged gets to work hard, not pay taxes, and look down upon those that work just as hard if not harder to get a taste of the so called good life. Make your own good life. If you have to be a slave, be one with working papers that makes time for the little big things in life. Don't let it pass you by!

HAVE YOU MEDITATED TODAY?

For some time now I have once again fallen out of touch with things I have enjoyed and one of them is meditation. Well I felt the universe was going to be most unforgiving, and boy was I wrong! The experience was energizing and gave me a sense of becoming more aware of myself and my beloved universe (yes the universe and I are in a relationship and it's complicated! ). I often wonder why not many do it. Then I realized sometimes you feel you don't have the time or space via someone always wants or needs your attention be it work or people at home. Find a way to make time. Tell people that this hour on these days are my me times. Inform them you're not to be disturbed. Better yet go for 2hours if you can. New parents or those with newborns take advantage when they are sleeping and content. Meditation much like yoga is a wonderful way to destress. You may experience things that you feel at first is strange but enjoy the positive feelings it comes with ^_^ have you meditated today?

FEAR.......

A thing that can hold us back or keep us alive just a little bit longer but also leave us wondering down the road what if? We are all bound by a type of fear wether or not one wishes to acknowledge or ignore it by being in denial, we ALL have it. Fear of failure, death, loss of a parent, child, grandparent (even if they are old) loss of a pet, job, being homeless,  being nothing, wasting life, not taking a risk, taking a risk, being right or wrong etc. Fear is around us. It is US. But... what if we eliminate fear? What if we get rid of it completely? Sure we could be free, but fear is also tied with rarity sense (because you know common sense ain't so common! Badu tiss!) We all know you kill, get caught and get in a trial we risk gettint imprisoned and being bubba's next butt buddy! But I'm not speaking on a fear that's logical and makes sense. That trip you save for and decide not to go because what if something financially goes wrong? What if it doesn't and you never get that chance. Let's all throw that nonsensical fear out the way. Say hello to that person you've had your eye on, take that one night stand (Use fucking protection don't be an idiot) take that trip open your own business work major over time so you'll have enough stashed to pay stuff in advance, leave work on good tearms, go to school for what you want or reach that dream job! You only get one chance per life time to remember and look back on things and not regret a single thing. Sure if you believe in reincarnation that's great but you're not going tp fully remember if at all that previous life so make THIS one count. Throw the miniscule fear out the window and save for important things. Everything that lives is bound to die. So enjoy it and spend time with that person you know you'll eventually lose because it's the fantastic memories you want not the "I should have" memories.  FUCK FEAR!

if it's bigger than a fist and it fits up her vagina she's a hoe!

Ummmm pause? I'm sorry if you fail to not only have a vagina and not have enough common sense in life, but you also fail on realizing how a vagina works. Have you forgotten primary option of how you get a baby out? It's not just women who make such stupid statements either, men are guilty as well. What gets me irritated more than a man saying it, is a damn woman. It's bad enough you're already looked at as an object but you downplay a fellow woman based off of the size of an object she can shove up her personal space. Newsflash, if she can, chances are you can too. If it hurts or not is based off of what level of pain your body personally can take. Like an IUD for example, putting it in or removing it can hurt for one woman but not the other. Doesn't mean she sleeps around, but if she does who cares it's her life! An average width of a vagina is about 3-5 inches anyway. Which with the proper stimulation can get wider. So before you go around bashing..... kindly go fuck yourself. Literally go do so you just may surprise yourself.